Lately I have been feeling lost.  Out of sorts.  Disconnected.

 

I have not been inclined to do anything.  I have not even felt like watching TV.  You know you are in a funk when you can't even get the energy to veg!  Books don't interest me, I have just been sitting outside staring!

 

I have been depressed, as I am in debt up to my eyeballs, and not sign of relief!  It has been hard, I worked really hard during Costume season, overtime really!  I cut my finger, so badly it is now permently damaged.  and.... i have NOTHING to show for it.  It did not reduce my debt at all, in fact it seemed to increase.  So what was the point!  I know the lawyer will eventually solve this for me, but in the mean time.... I have to find money to pay her!  (money, or even credit, I don;t have!)  It is depressing!

 

Well, last week I got tired of it, I got tired of being tired. 

 

Thursday, I cleaned the bottom of the basement stairs (this is a big thing, it took 5 minutes, but it cleared such a space in my head)  I then wrote a list of everything I felt I needed to do.  And then picked the funnest thing, my special project I started a while ago, but had to put off when costumes started!

 

The next morning, before the kids got up, I got four things done, I CLEANED my room, it looks spectacular (just don't look behind any closed doors or in the drawers! I cleaned the bathrooms, (another HUGE JOB that takes 5 mins, but I always feel better after!)  Organized my financial documents! (a most hated job, but it has to be done!) And finally cleaned up the scrapbooking cupboard!  ( a more fun job)

 

I felt sooooooo good!  I was able to goof off the rest of the day, and feel good about it!

 

I finished the special project, and now have to start part B (the second special project, as it turns out I needed two, and also it seems sometime in the next 2-3 weeks!!!!)

 

I also applied for two jobs, they pay enough to pay my bills!!! If I got one, I would be finally have the money to be independant, and more importantly, pay off some debts! (with time, and careful budgeting!)  I will continue to think positive!  I will keep you all posted!

 

Funny how doing one little thing, like picking up a few things can get you moving!  I feel so much better than I did a week or so ago!

 

Well, I have to start the BBQ!  steak and chicken!!! YUM YUM!

Jel